I just shut down. So do you think your father knew he would be caught? In some parts, you describe him as being a loving father and family man before his arrest. As far as I understand, she has PTSD from the events around his arrest. No. All contents © 2021 The Slate Group LLC. He denied it. I haven’t talked to him in a year. That’s one of the things I’ve had to wrestle with: If things were the way they should have been, I wouldn’t be alive. She went into therapy around the same time I did. Dennis Rader is escorted into the El Dorado Correctional Facility on Aug. 19, 2005, in El Dorado, Kansas. Rader is a symbol of the FBI's limits. She said her faith wasn’t strong until she was with her father on a dangerous hike in the Grand Canyon and that’s when, “He gave me something to hold onto,” she said. When my daughter was 5—she’s 10 now—she was like: “Where’s my other grandpa?” I told her, “I have a dad, his name’s Dennis, and he’s in jail.” She didn’t even know what jail was. My publisher set the date; it has nothing to do with your murders 45 years ago.” I’m trying to show you an example of what it’s like to communicate with him, and why I don’t that often. Rawson said her faith came from youth. I wouldn’t work with him at all. That’s the closest I’ve ever seen him to saying he’s sorry. When he came to the door and announced that he was an FBI agent, a suspicious Rawson asked to see his ID, CBC Radio reported. BTK Strangler Dennis Rader's daughter unwittingly played role in catching America's most elusive serial killer. My understanding is that you haven’t been in touch with your father while writing the book. He had even risen to become president of his church council. It’s a combination of being hit on and somebody saying they would like to kill you. After that, he sort of came back to his narcissistic self, focused on himself. I don’t know. In June, somebody took a picture of my father and me fishing and made a Father’s Day card and tweeted it to me. “I knew right away it was my dad,” she says. He was quiet, and then the 30th anniversary of the Otero murders was in 2004. BTK responds to daughter’s book. But not what. A conversation with the daughter of the serial killer BTK. You lied to us, deceived us. They put somebody on trial, but the guy got off. Powered by. I was grown and out of the house; my brother was in the Navy. For Rawson, there is life before Feb. 25, 2005, and life after. I know that he cared for us and loved us. I think it’s important, from a criminology aspect, to show that he was a father and a husband and a co-worker. He wanted to put everything in his notebooks and folders on a computer disc and store them in a safety deposit box. At the start of each episode in season 2, Dennis Rader (Sonny Valicenti) walks around Wichita, KS in the aftermath of his quadruple homicide. In an interview on the Law & Crime Network, Rawson described receiving death threats. It’s not like you’re going to sit there and make dinner for the guy after finding out he’s murdered 10 people. I think he was just bored and wanted to play games. After she had children, Rawson stopped writing to him altogether. He called himself BTK because he bound, tortured, and killed his victims. In interviews, Rawson has said that her childhood was fairly normal. You’ve run out of free articles. Kerri Rawson is the daughter of the infamous Bind-Torture-Kill serial killer, Dennis Rader, and she is also an advocate for abuse, trauma and crime victims. After her father’s arrest, Rawson said she heard the agent’s words playing in an unstoppable loop in her head, according to Detroit News: “Her chest frequently grew tight. He wrote [letters] in March of ’05. They found it was a 90% match with BTK. Growing up, Rawson said Rader was very protective, CBC Radio reported. This interview has been edited and condensed for clarity. Rawson Said She Suffered PTSD. He was the BTK Strangler—a serial killer who murdered at least 10 people with incomprehensible sadism: Binding, Torturing, and Killing his victims inside their homes. Finally, in 2012, God said, ‘we’ve got to deal with this; I asked you to forgive and we have to work on that.’. My dad said he was actually at her house and then he saw repairmen or something and left. Since her father's arrest, Kerri has been an advocate for victims of abuse, crime, and trauma, sharing her journey of hope, healing, faith, and forgiveness. It felt like I was pulling something out inside of me. Dennis Rader was not only the BTK (short for bind, torture, kill) killer, the notorious serial killer who killed 10 people and tortured Kansas for decades. Honestly, he should have turned himself in before the Otero murders, to a psychiatric hospital. Slate relies on advertising to support our journalism. Rawson told Esquire that the news came as a shock: My mom and I have both said, early on, if we had known, we would’ve gone screaming out the door, running to the police. Kerri Rawson, The BTK Killer’s Daughter. In her new book, "A Serial Killer’s Daughter: My Story of Faith, Love, and Overcoming," Rawson describes struggling to reconcile the loving father she knew with psychopathic murderer known as BTK. [We] didn’t know we were living with a psychopath. She lives with her husband, two children, and two cats in Michigan. Please try again. Are your children old enough to understand who your father is? By the time Kerri Rawson (nee Rader) was born in 1978, her father had already murdered seven people. He hadn’t communicated [with the police] between ’79 and ’04, except around ’87, when he sent a letter to Mrs. Fager. I had two parents raising me. They said they’re positive it wasn’t my dad, and he just has the 10 [murders]. You’ve got to realize, you’re dealing with a very twisted, insane person. “I’m trying to keep being courageous and saying what I need to say.”. I didn’t think any of those terms applied to me. Right now they know he’s done bad stuff. That side of him wasn’t an act. Kerri Rawson is the daughter of the infamous Bind-Torture-Kill serial killer, Dennis Rader, and an advocate for abuse, trauma and crime victims. I don’t know if I can pinpoint the exact moment. He could potentially talk to me on the phone. It’s just so out there and so crazy that I still have that “Oh, my dad’s BTK” moment now. I think he felt like we were safe from whatever he was doing. As books piled up in her living room, Rawson wrote in a Facebook post that she became overwhelmed after opening one of the boxes. "I sat down and wrote a six-page letter to my dad," Kerri Rawson told Inside Edition. In a recent Skype conversation, Rawson talked about grappling with her father’s crimes. I’ve said it’s like pulling out shards of glass. Mr Rader was arrested after his daughter, Kerri, 26, reported her fears that her father might be the killer. He’s been encouraging me on the book, but he also wanted to be involved. You can manage your newsletter subscriptions at any time. “He could potentially talk to me on the phone. I would come up to these things and not want to write them, and I would have to force myself to do it. With him just living his life in secret? BTK had started his crimes in 1974, before Kerri was born. Rawson’s book, “A Serial Killer’s Daughter: My Story Of Faith, Love, And Overcoming,” was published in January 2019, representing what she said was the culmination of years of therapy and recovery. It’s not like I would ever get to hug him or anything. I’m afraid my family dismissed it and just thought that was the worse we would ever have from my father. I don’t have my good food and my house shoes. I’m a trauma victim. Kerry Rawson – Daughter of BTK Killer Speaks About Father, BookKerry Rawson – Daughter of BTK Killer Speaks About Father, Book #BTKKiller2019-02-06T22:34:26Z. Charlie Otero, 61, tells DailyMailTV the moment he discovered his parents, Joseph, 38, and Julie, 33, and two siblings Josephine, 11, and Joey Jr, nine, murdered at their Kansas home in 1974. They were sort of pushing me, asking, “Well, what did he do?” I kind of blew up and I said, “He’s in jail for hurting people.” I left it at that. . The daughter of one of America’s most notorious serial killers, Dennis Rader, who was known as the BTK killer is now speaking out. And said: “Happy Father’s Day.” Weekly I get asked, “How could you have not known?” I also get, “You’re not a victim. The daughter of Wichita’s notorious serial killer breaks her silence in an exclusive local interview with Susan Peters. In court, he didn’t even get some of their names right. When you internalize all that anger and hate, you basically hate yourself because you’ve tucked it inside deep yourself and you’re hurting your internal self. And I’m alone. Instead of committing the murder, he just went on the campout. But occasionally I’ll reach out to a detective and they’ll have to reassure me: No, it’s just the 10. She also said that he helped her build a treehouse and taught her outdoor survival skills, according to CBC Radio. The BTK Killer was on the loose from 1974 until 2005, which obviously left Wichita in a constant state of fear and panic. I was pretty surprised because I hadn’t heard that until 2016. By joining Slate Plus you support our work and get exclusive content. Why aren’t you calling or visiting me?” You don’t really see remorse for what he did to the victims and their families. They’re really good at hiding… I mean, my mom lived with him for 34 years, and 90, 95 percent of the time, he was a good, loving father and husband. He was able to trick his community into thinking he was a friendly neighbor, loving husband and father. BTK serial killer's daughter shares letters he wrote her from behind bars: 'The dark side took me away' “I had to learn how to grieve a man that was not dead," his daughter told 20/20. provider-logo browse Kerri Rawson discusses what it's like to grow up as the daughter of a convicted serial killer. For those families, he needed to be caught. She married her college sweetheart, Darian, that same year. The BTK Killer, whose real name is Dennis Rader, seemed like your everyday father of two. He’s my father, and I still love him. In the book, you show how emotional he was when the family dog had to be put to sleep. Seems like he sort of stumbled into getting caught. 20/20 full episode recap, 2019-02-01: After "BTK" serial killer Dennis Rader's shocking confession, his daughter had to find ways to cope with her new, shattered reality. Some people think he started communicating because he wanted to get caught. How has her recovery been similar to yours or different? Kerri Rawson, the daughter of infamous serial killer Dennis Rader aka BTK Killer, has broken her silence in her first television interview. …So it was plants — or murder. Seized by fear and disgust, Rawson realized she recognized the voice. Kerri Rawson was born in Wichita, Kansas in 1978. Earlier that day, when an FBI agent had knocked on her door and informed her that her father had been identified as the BTK killer and arrested for murder, Rawson insisted it was all a mistake. ... Share this video on Twitter. I actually asked some detectives about it in Wichita. He lived in Wichita, Kansas, with his wife and two children and worked as a Park City compliance officer. She’s sort of dealt with my dad like he died on the day he was arrested. He wanted to, like, have me do a book of his artwork. I’m not ever trying to defend anything my father has done, because it’s not defensible. Feb 12, 2019 5:50 AM. I didn’t find out until ’16 he was going to murder somebody on that day. I do know detectives think it was true and talked to the person my dad had targeted and stalked. I was sitting there with the agent, at first defending my father and saying, “It’s not true, you’ve got the wrong guy.” And then I remembered that my neighbor lady had been murdered in ’85 and as far as I knew, that hadn’t been solved. It wasn’t until I saw the trauma therapist and she was like, “This is post-traumatic stress disorder and you’re a trauma victim.” I was like, “How can I be a trauma victim, because nothing happened to me.” She explained, “Everything you were notified about, everything your father was involved in, is traumatic. I don’t know. Thanks for signing up! BTK killer on his way out, Bo Rader-The Wichita Eagle/Reuters Between 1974 and 1991 he terrorized the people of Wichita, Kansas by a series of ten murders. I’ve never seen him express remorse. He was also a family man, the president of the local Christ Lutheran Church and a boy scout troop leader. “Seeing years of hard, tooth and nail scraping work finally in my hands brought me to tears,” she wrote. "Everything upended on us," Kerri Rawson said of learning her father Dennis Rader was the BTK serial killer, who murdered 10 people, including two children, and haunted Wichita for decades. That’s one of those things that just hangs there—could there still be more? Season 2019 Episode 01/29/2019. He wanted to be involved in your book? Subscribe to CTV News to watch more videos: Woman discovers her father is notorious BTK serial killer [NIGHTLINE]. It’s one thing to be unwittingly married to a serial killer, but quite another thing to be his offspring. Kerri Rawson. BTK killer's daughter on growing up related to a serial murdererKerri Rawson discusses what it's like to grow up as the daughter of a convicted serial killer. By the time Rawson was born in 1978, her father had already committed seven murders, including a family of four. After she let him in, she was standing in the kitchen staring at a chocolate bundt cake when the agent told her that her father — a stamp collecting Cub Scout leader — had been arrested in Kansas and was accused of being the serial killer, BTK. And we didn’t really ever address it or talk about it. Kerry Rawson – Daughter of BTK Killer Speaks About Father, Book, Kerry Rawson – Daughter of BTK Killer Speaks About Father, Book #BTKKiller, Investigation Discovery’s Nine at 9 Series, Investigation Discovery’s Serial Killer week, A Serial Killer’s Daughter: My Story Of Faith, Love, And Overcoming, said in her Law & Crime Network interview, she said she felt overcome with a sense of forgiveness, Jeffrey Dahmer, Confessed Cannibal & Necrophiliac: 5 Fast Facts You Need To Know. However, Rawson said that her father also occasionally showed his more sinister side: In hindsight, now, we can see where he had flashes of anger, he was controlling, he could be verbally abusive at times and there were two incidents of physical violence against my brother when he was older. Or that I had witnessed physical abuse in my house. Woman discovers her father is notorious BTK serial killer [NIGHTLINE]"Everything upended on us," Kerri Rawson said of learning her father Dennis Rader was the BTK serial killer, who murdered 10 people, including two children, and haunted Wichita for decades.2019-02-02T11:23:18Z. I had a father raising me. He wanted fame for the killings he did and to do so he would write letters which involved drawings and poems to local police and news outlets describing what he had done. You can see the remorse of, like: “I’m in jail. My Family’s COVID Year Trapped on a Superyacht off New Zealand, If You Hate New Year’s, You’re Doing It Wrong, New Jersey’s Weed Market Is About to Explode—and Face a Crucial Test, A Serial Killer’s Daughter: My Story of Faith, Love, and Overcoming. The daughter of the serial killer known as "BTK" says she has forgiven him — and has sent him letters in prison. I was like, “No, that’s not possible.”. It’s hard, because I know he’s 73 and he’s having some health issues. Sometimes I’m still bracing for that phone call from the media or a detective. That’s the most emotion I’ve seen out of him in letters. Have you had contact with those families [of Rader’s victims]? Send me updates about Slate special offers. We encountered an issue signing you up. And then—say I’m in page edits—it comes back to me: “Oh, Dad’s BTK.” That breaks into your head and it still stings. We are trying to cope and survive . There’s that “Black Friday” poem where he talks about being caught. Like 90–95 percent of the time, he was a good dad. So he heard the book was coming out at the end of January, and he even asked, “Did it have something to do with the anniversary of the Otero murders?” And I was like, “No. When he was in court for sentencing, he never expressed remorse as far as I know. It’s not like our rational minds can rationalize what my father is thinking or doing. He should have been arrested right after the Otero murders [in 1974]. No. There was a special [about BTK] on the news. Kerri Rawson, her mother (blurred out), and her father, Dennis Rader, in 1978. He has a [big] fan club—people that write him and even talk to him on the phone. . Dennis Rader, in full Dennis Lynn Rader, byname BTK or BTK Killer, (born March 9, 1945, Pittsburg, Kansas, U.S.), American serial killer who murdered 10 people over a span of three decades before his arrest and confession in 2005. Rawson told Detroit News that she struggled to write the book and especially think about who her father was, as both the man she knew and the killer terrorizing Wichita. All of that becomes trauma when you find out about it. Do these people harass you on social media? And you'll never see this message again. Late one February evening in 2005, Kerri Rawson went online and listened to a recording of the BTK killer from 1977. Kerri Rawson and her father, Dennis Rader, at Rawson’s wedding in 2003. I was 6. It’s difficult to reconcile the fact that he was a murderer, and yet he cried like a normal person would cry when his dog died. But I think it’s important for people to understand: I did lose my father. However, Rawson has also said that writing the book was cathartic for her; talking about it has helped heal me in a way that nothing else could, Rawson said in a video trailer about the book. I don’t know what makes a person able to do that. But my dad’s full of BS. For years we would ask my daughter, “What’s the worst thing someone could do?” And she would say: “Be a burglar.” We knew she wasn’t prepared to handle the answer. “We camped, we fished, we hiked, I walked the dog with him,” she said in her CTV News interview. BTK: A Killer Among Us, a new ID documentary series, dives deeper than ever before into the methods and madness of Dennis Rader by way of interviews with those most directly intertwined with the case: law enforcement agents, victim’s family members, investigative journalists, and, yes, BTK’s own daughter, Kerri Rawson. After her father’s arrest, Rawson said she heard the agent’s words … After the plea, she didn’t; she never wrote him since then. But then he would have my phone number, and I haven’t ever wanted him to have it. Rawson said she learned the news about her father on February 25, 2005, from a man who had been parked outside her apartment in Farmington, Michigan for an hour, CBC Radio reported. “I know he’s 73 and he’s having some health issues. Kerri Rawson: Yeah. In his secret life as “BTK”—short for “bind, torture, kill,” the sick nickname summarizing his methods—Rader had murdered 10 people in the Wichita area between 1974 and 1991. I sort of equate it to, like, hell. Between attacks, Rader courted infamy by mailing rambling letters to local media and police. When Rader complained about the lack of visits from his family and told a pastor that he had been a good man “who just did bad things,” according to The Star, Rawson grew disgusted and wrote him an angry letter: You have had these secrets, this ‘double life’ for 30 years; we have only had knowledge of it for three months. Filed Under: BTK, BTK's daughter, Dennis Rader, Dr Oz, Kelsey Berreth, serial killer, True Crime Dennis Rader was a soft-spoken family man and church leader who … We were writing pretty regularly after I forgave him in ’12. She couldn’t work, couldn’t sleep. Personally, I was falling apart last fall with PTSD, and then my son got ill. He’s said that he compartmentalizes, so that if he’s with you, he’s just Dennis. They’ll print off my tweets or my Facebook pictures of my kids and send them to him. Kerri Rawson, the daughter of notorious serial killer Dennis Rader aka "BTK" has released a new book 'A Serial Killer's Daughter.' Do you believe your dad always knew he would be caught eventually? My dad should have been in prison since ’74. I have only ever written him. None of my family felt comfortable going to the sentencing and plea. Zach Schonfeld: Has writing this memoir helped you heal from the trauma of learning who your father was? She knew her father, Dennis Rader, as normal, law-abiding, kind: a 59-year-old compliance officer in Park City, Kansas. If you ask me to try to reconcile it, my brain will explode. Do you think you will reach a point where you’ll want to see him? However, Rawson said that the book not only helped her, but also her family, according to ABC News. Rawson told Esquire that Rader wanted the book to be a joint project, which she firmly rejected. People keep saying, “Well, wouldn’t you want to meet with the family members?” To me, it would be really unimaginable and difficult. But now you realize, that kept him out of trouble. The book’s portrait of your father is complicated. Rawson, a substitute teacher, graduated from Kansas State University in 2003, as shown by a photo of her standing with her father in an ABC News article. He was trying to stop. How do you reconcile these two sides? BTK's Daughter Speaks Out - Tonight at 7pm. Every weekday, Slate's copy editors round up the stories you should read. If you value our work, please disable your ad blocker. Do you think he is incapable of feeling sorry for what he did to them? After the agent left the home, Rawson said she took down a family photo of him that had been on their wall and stored it in her closet because she couldn’t bear to look at her father. He turned my bedroom into a nursery for plants when I was 3, and I’d sleep with my brother in the bunk bed. “I feel like my father imploded my family,” she told the Detroit News. “I grew up in a small Lutheran church and it was very important that my dad took us to church,” she said in her Law & Crime Network interview. in her Law & Crime Network interview, Rawson said she realized she needed to forgive: Eventually what happened was I took all that pain and I internalized it even though I’d been in trauma therapy. And they’ve seen pictures of him. For years, she hid from the intense media interest in her family. I did that probably a thousand times. BTK's daughter tells her story of living with a serial killer father. “I’m getting hit very bad by trolls: somebody said they want to put my family in a woodchipper,” she said. Just Google “BTK’s 11th victim,” you’ll find it. It seems like your father expressed much remorse for the way his crimes affected your family, but he doesn’t express remorse for the people he actually murdered and their families. How did he react when he learned you were writing a book about this? Contents1 Early life and educational background2 Career3 Married to the BTK murderer3.1 Ex-husband Dennis Rader’s early life3.2 The double life of the BTK murderer3.3 Arrest and the emergency divorce3.4 The influence of the story on cinematography and literature4 Daughter, Kerri Rawson5 Son, Brain Rader Paula Dietz apparently lived a peaceful and happy life in the . I would be really broken up, knowing it was my father who caused them so much pain and loss. How has your understanding of PTSD changed since your father was arrested? He’s my father, and I still love. During that time, he took the lives of 10 people in the area. However, on a night in December 2012, she said she felt overcome with a sense of forgiveness and wrote her father in the first time in five years. But then he would have my phone number, and I haven’t ever wanted him to have. Reading the book, I found myself wondering about your mom’s story. It’s my memoir about what I’ve gone through. I would give anything to just have my dad back and not have any of that. Well, no. For the daughter of a man who counted two children among his victims, it’s been a long journey to cope with the horrific revelation. Slate is published by The Slate Group, a Graham Holdings Company. Everybody assumed the BTK Killer was a sadistic genius. My dad says in Ramsland’s book that he was going to commit the murder and then go on a campout with his family. Was there a specific moment when you realized he really had done these things? I’ve been told, “Every day of your life is a lie because you never lived with the man you thought you did.” The fact that he murdered seven people before you were born and three after—that automatically makes him not a good dad. Kerri Rawson is the daughter of Dennis Rader, better known to the world as the serial killer BTK. The two have a daughter, Emilie, in 2008 and a son, Ian, in 2011. I mean, right after sentencing, in a September ’05 letter, he says he’s so sorry for the victims and he asks God to be between him and them. If he’s out there being BTK, he’s BTK. BTK's daughter opens up about her father in revealing new documentary. You also talk about how he had this temper and occasionally became violent. READ NEXT: Jeffrey Dahmer, Confessed Cannibal & Necrophiliac: 5 Fast Facts You Need To Know, Kerri Rawson, the Daughter of Serial Killer BTK: 5 Fast Facts You Need To Know, Copyright © 2021 Heavy, Inc. All rights reserved. It’s been 14 years. You don’t have the right to share your story.”. How would that work? [Rader sometimes writes poems from his prison cell.] I argue that he can. “We’re not the same and we’ll never be the same.”. I think he feels sorry he got caught. If you go visit my father, you’re in one room, he’s in another, and he’s chained to a table. You can cancel anytime. Even this far out, I’ll live my normal daily life and won’t be thinking about my dad as BTK. He’s allowed to leave for about an hour a day to exercise or shower. But it also would be so difficult that I haven’t been able to do it. In fact, after his arrest, Rawson waffled between hating and loving him, defending him and believing he was BTK. The letters in your book from your father are interesting. Harper Collins It was a 911 call, a chilling dispatch in which the caller casually reported a homicide he had just committed to the police. She told the magazine that the last time she saw her father was during the holidays, when she gave him a hug and inhaled the scent of Old Spice. All rights reserved. Rader tortured and murdered ten people in Wichita, Kansas. Kerri Rawson, daughter of Dennis Rader, otherwise known as serial killer BTK, talks to A&E Real Crime about her struggle to reconcile the man who raised her with the one who, for years, terrorized her hometown of Wichita, Kansas. ... Facebook Twitter Instagram RSS Feed If he had turned himself in, saying, “I’m capable of doing this”—or if he had been caught like he should have been—I wouldn’t be here. Rawson was featured on the Investigation Discovery’s Nine at 9 Series and her father was featured during Investigation Discovery’s Serial Killer week. Join Slate Plus to continue reading, and you’ll get unlimited access to all our work—and support Slate’s independent journalism. He said he wanted to “retire” as BTK. My Father BTK – 20/20 PT 1 WATCH THE FULL EPISODE OF 20/20: https://bit.ly/2G7o4yl Woman recalls moment she found out her father was the BTK … Yeah. For the families, I’m glad he got caught so they got answers and justice. I didn’t even realize the first two years I had PTSD. I was killing myself internalizing this and not talking about it. Later, it was stamps … We had hundreds of stamps in tubs. Police asked her for a voluntary blood sample. Has he ever shown remorse for that? Like going to Mordor, if you’ve seen Lord of the Rings. By Zach Schonfeld. I’ve never been comfortable enough to talk to him on the phone or see him at the prison. [The 1987 Fager family murder in Wichita remains unsolved, and BTK denied involvement at the time.]. Kerri Rawson, daughter of Dennis Rader, recalls the moment she learned her father was a serial killer in a new ID doc. The book will feed his elephantine ego by bringing attention to him, Jeff Davis, the son of one of Rader’s victims, told Detroit News. I don’t know. I get trolled. You’ve mentioned sick people who idolize your father. She would burst out crying in restaurants and churches,” the paper reported. Rawson, now 40, has battled post-traumatic stress disorder and found solace in Christian faith since her father’s arrest. Her harrowing new memoir, A Serial Killer’s Daughter: My Story of Faith, Love, and Overcoming, chronicles her struggle to reconcile the father she grew up with—supportive, kind, devoted to his family despite occasional frightening flashes of temper—with the man who murdered women and indulged in sadistic sexual fantasies. She has said on her website that she wrote the book to help “all who suffer from unhealed wounds or the crippling effects of violence, betrayal, and anger” forgive “the unforgivable.”. 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